15-09-2018, 10:22 AM
(This post was last modified: 15-09-2018, 11:13 AM by sparklingstar.)
Goodmorning sir. Trust God you are fine.
1. been praying abut that heart skipping stuff, hasn’t reduced but I remembered the day it returned was towards the end of my indoors, I ignored it. Though still there and does change my mood when it happens but I dnt want it to get to the way it was before so I am praying about it, since I cant understand it. Then in my undergraduate it used to happen often and bad that I will feel like my heart will really jump out. But I didn’t remember when it stopped until now it started gradually.
2. I offered someone my earphones to remove the rubber ends and use as a form of support to stand on. It was as if I usually do it, then replace it when am done. I did give him or some else either my rosary or beads looking like to use only the large beds but someone didn’t want him to use it. I began asking myself if it was I if I would do so.
3. it was as if a lady or a prayer minister was in our house, not sure exactly but after doing what she came to do, she was talking to I and my siblings. Cant remember her words exactly but I understood that I and one of my siblings has dealt with some issues I related to my father’s death but 2 of them hasn’t, and they were both sad. I remember tying a bundle of money in an envelope and hid it for safe keeping. The lady mentioned that I had ulterior motives. I told her am the first, when things get bad, they will still look up to me. My brother left, I followed him but not sure where he was going. He headed to a bus park and wanted to take a particular one. He fare was 5k, he wanted to book, the man in charge showed him the manifest, he was N0. 10/ 11. I told him I dnt have the money there, since the bus leaves around 8/9am, I can make it there at 6am and still get a space. But he wasn’t motivated to pay, but I stayed with him.
4. I only remember coming out to urinate and I needed to do it fast before people pass by. Saw a friend, she complained of a wall that rises and collapses on it own. I was standing somewhere but I felt the soil wnt hold me.
5. not sure how it started, but I walked into an office of a man I knew from church, the office was dark but one can still make out features and persons. The office was really large unlike in the physical and looked like an archive. Since he couldn’t see me, I explained myself, though he gave no explanation as to why his office was dark and he was in there. He asked if I have eaten and said we should go. I was hungry but not too hungry but I didn’t wasn’t him sponsoring the food because I felt it might give him the wrong impression. He asked me to go ahead of him to the eatery. I got there and couldn’t find the way in, from the window he directed me in, when I got in he had just finished eating and didn’t say anything about them serving me, but brought out his wallet to pay and there were few 200naira notes may not be up to 1k, he kept saying under his breathe that he didn’t want to spend much, I sat slightly far from him. Cant remember exactly other things going on there but I mentally noted I could come apply there bcos it seems students were there too.
6. not sure where it began, but I spread my towel (green and white, have not used it in a long time now) on a rope in the hostel and went to bath, cant remember if I did bath. I came out and couldn’t find the towel. I saw it downstairs where students were gathered not sure what they were doing but thinking about it now, reminded me of the Israelites and the bull image. I felt I knew who did that but I didn’t think it wise to confront her. I went downstairs, got into the midst of the crowd and was able to get my towel. Cant remember other things that happened.
Thank you
1. been praying abut that heart skipping stuff, hasn’t reduced but I remembered the day it returned was towards the end of my indoors, I ignored it. Though still there and does change my mood when it happens but I dnt want it to get to the way it was before so I am praying about it, since I cant understand it. Then in my undergraduate it used to happen often and bad that I will feel like my heart will really jump out. But I didn’t remember when it stopped until now it started gradually.
2. I offered someone my earphones to remove the rubber ends and use as a form of support to stand on. It was as if I usually do it, then replace it when am done. I did give him or some else either my rosary or beads looking like to use only the large beds but someone didn’t want him to use it. I began asking myself if it was I if I would do so.
3. it was as if a lady or a prayer minister was in our house, not sure exactly but after doing what she came to do, she was talking to I and my siblings. Cant remember her words exactly but I understood that I and one of my siblings has dealt with some issues I related to my father’s death but 2 of them hasn’t, and they were both sad. I remember tying a bundle of money in an envelope and hid it for safe keeping. The lady mentioned that I had ulterior motives. I told her am the first, when things get bad, they will still look up to me. My brother left, I followed him but not sure where he was going. He headed to a bus park and wanted to take a particular one. He fare was 5k, he wanted to book, the man in charge showed him the manifest, he was N0. 10/ 11. I told him I dnt have the money there, since the bus leaves around 8/9am, I can make it there at 6am and still get a space. But he wasn’t motivated to pay, but I stayed with him.
4. I only remember coming out to urinate and I needed to do it fast before people pass by. Saw a friend, she complained of a wall that rises and collapses on it own. I was standing somewhere but I felt the soil wnt hold me.
5. not sure how it started, but I walked into an office of a man I knew from church, the office was dark but one can still make out features and persons. The office was really large unlike in the physical and looked like an archive. Since he couldn’t see me, I explained myself, though he gave no explanation as to why his office was dark and he was in there. He asked if I have eaten and said we should go. I was hungry but not too hungry but I didn’t wasn’t him sponsoring the food because I felt it might give him the wrong impression. He asked me to go ahead of him to the eatery. I got there and couldn’t find the way in, from the window he directed me in, when I got in he had just finished eating and didn’t say anything about them serving me, but brought out his wallet to pay and there were few 200naira notes may not be up to 1k, he kept saying under his breathe that he didn’t want to spend much, I sat slightly far from him. Cant remember exactly other things going on there but I mentally noted I could come apply there bcos it seems students were there too.
6. not sure where it began, but I spread my towel (green and white, have not used it in a long time now) on a rope in the hostel and went to bath, cant remember if I did bath. I came out and couldn’t find the towel. I saw it downstairs where students were gathered not sure what they were doing but thinking about it now, reminded me of the Israelites and the bull image. I felt I knew who did that but I didn’t think it wise to confront her. I went downstairs, got into the midst of the crowd and was able to get my towel. Cant remember other things that happened.
Thank you