1. If means, you'd have had the opportunity to embark or start your calling by working with a friend. That would have been your humble beginning.
2. She doesn't seem to agree with your progress or your purpose in life.
Do those two,two of you really have something in common,especially her; does she really support your journey/progress or purpose in life? I am seeing lot of question mark. But the signs,answer to these questions, be it positive or negative is always there to notice or found if you choose to seek or know it.
3. You can't drive now,take possession of the mantle or full control of the task ahead or mission God has handed over to you yet as you won't succeed,infact it's deadly hence you must embrace patient,practice,prepare and master the act lest you fall into pit of ditch.
Bless u